As we drive from Indiana to Oklahoma with my 2 kids (5 & 2) I have the opportunity to really feel my world. The world around me that I have created; the world I try so hard to make sure I live each moment to the fullest. It’s so comforting watching the scenery change as we cross state lines and enjoy the quietness as the kids nap. I am so grateful to be able to have the ability to travel. To take time away from the need to work, the need to clean my house, to keep my kids occupied as I plan La Leche League Meetings and prepare for homeschooling and co-op preschool. This upcoming fall looks so bright, and so overwhelming at the same time. I look forward to the adventures that are on our horizon. I turn the big 3-0 next week and I have to say I am really looking forward to it. Thirty doesn’t seem so bad. I have passion and goals and for once in my life I’m not desperate for something to be different. So with that I would like to share a message to my 16 year old self with you.
The man you are with is a true catch. He might me a country boy, but his values are true and so pure. He loves you more than you think is possible to love someone and he is loyal to you in a way that doesn’t exist much in this world. Let your hesitancy go and enjoy making memories together. He will be the dad that you never had and never could dream of being for your children. Let go of your idea of what prince charming is and realize he’s right in-front of you.
You already know the relationship with your mom is strong, but it’s invaluable. Remember that your actions affect her too. You won’t really get this till you’re a mom yourself but try to be aware of her.
Put the joint down! Seriously, it’s fun and you won’t really regret it when you’re older but its holding you back right now and creating a lot of your anxiety issues.
For goodness sakes girl, finish High School. Imagine having to tell your kids one day that you dropped out.
Realize now that friends come and go. Find love in yourself, not others.
Your passion, drive, and purpose come later in life. Don’t get your panties in a wad because you don’t know what you want to do with yourself right this second.
Dye your hair pink now, because at 30 you’re going to want to cross it off your bucket list.
Live each moment to the fullest. Every single smile, laugh, tear, and sob gets you to a beautiful place one day and each moment is so worth it. Let go of what you think should be and hold on to the now and what is.
Finally, be kind! Be kind to yourself and to others. Don’t judge others actions and choices; we all are learning different lessons.