Today was the first day back to school after winter break for my 2 oldest boys….and I am not ashamed to say, YIPPEE!!!!!!! Now I know in some circles the thought of being away from your kids for 8 hours a day is taboo….and there are some people who relish every minute with their kids and just cannot imagine being away from them. I am not that Mom. Now don’t get me wrong. I love my kids more then anything in this world, but…seriously. I need a break.
Once upon a time in a land far far away, we were unschoolers…and in theory I totally and 100% agree with the unschooling philosophy. I wish I could send my kids off to school and they would be unschooled. Unfortunately that isn’t a reality, and like I said before I need a freaking break, so school it was. I wanted SO badly to send my kids to Waldorf School. I went to a walk around at a local Waldorf School and it literally made my insides smile. How could a child NOT thrive here? Shit…I wanted to go to school there and I HATED school. I longed for my kids to be Waldorf kids, and to walk the halls of that magical school. Then I looked at the tuition. Almost $7,000 for 1 child per year? I have 4 children. We dont qualify for financial help…and that dream died. I wish with all my heart that Waldorf was affordable, everywhere. We have a fabulous local public school, but it doesnt replace the education that I feel in my heart that my children are missing out on.
Now I dont want to sound like I am ungrateful for the AMAZING public school that we have available to us…because seriously, it’s better them most. We live in a very small town and have our own school district. There are 2 schools…an elementary school and a secondary school. The total student body for the entire district is something like 350 kids, so our student body is afforded more things then most. With a town of only 2000 people and all the teachers, staff, parents and students being your neighbors everyone knows everyone. Because of this we have wholesome fresh made meals that are well balanced with fresh fruits and veg (that are about 80% locally grown), we still have Christmas and Easter in the schools (as well as all other holidays) and we’re allowed to talk about them and celebrate them IN SCHOOL…. and programs like teaching the kids to rollerskate by professionals and popcorn fridays. I LOVE our public school but for us, it will never compare to what Waldorf offers.
But anyways I digress….the main point of this post is that it’s ok to be happy your kids are gone for awhile. I used to feel guilty seeing all these moms who just missed their kids so much, and didn’t want them to go back to school, and were outraged that any mom could be HAPPY that vacation was over. And there I am, reading this thinking…”WTF is wrong with this lady” and I am wishing vacation cannot end fast enough. A lot of what we hear and read as mothers we internalize and take to heart. Your way is not the right way and neither is mine. Though I might try to convince you that my way is right 😉 because I believe passionately in the way I raise my kids…and who doesn’t? We wouldn’t do what we do if we didn’t feel it was right. …and the proof is in the pudding. I have amazing kids. Do they have their moments? Absolutely….there are 4 of them and they are all still young children. Do they drive me up the wall? Every.single.day….but are they good kids? Yes. Are they loving, and generous with their affection and love? Yes. Are they respectful and appreciative and kind? absolutely….so whatever people think of how I live my life and how I raise my kids. Maybe you should take a look AT my kids and how wonderful they are before you poo poo the path we have chosen to take, because obviously…we are doing something incredibly right.