I had two dolls growing up: Erica & Karen. I played with them for years. I never had a boy doll, they were always girls. All of the children in our family were girls. I had a sister. My dad worked out of town, so it was always just my mom, sister, & I. I was never around boys unless I was at school. So when I found out I was pregnant in 2007, I knew I was having a daughter.
The thing is, my daughter appeared to have a penis during our 20 week anatomy scan. A BOY?! As in, blue & trucks & monsters & dirt? I was still thrilled, though, & took to my phone to call every single person I knew. Everyone’s reaction was basically “Oh a boy? Well. Maybe next time will be a girl.” Their disapointment disappointed me. I felt bad for my poor unborn, unnamed baby boy. Jax was born in 2008 & was seriously, the most beautiful baby I have ever seen. He is still wildly beautiful, even at 4 years old.
Before I found out Elliot was a girl, I prayed for a girl. I wanted to know the bond that my mother had with my sister & I. My mother passed away suddenly on Easter Sunday when I was 16 weeks pregnant with Jax, so I prayed that I would get to know her love for me like I knew my love for her. I wanted to experience raising a daughter. The night before my 31st birthday, I was 18 weeks pregnant. I had a dream that to this day still gives me chills. I dreamt my mom made me a birthday cake. She sang happy birthday to me, then looked straight at me & said “You are having a girl”.
I cried all day. I felt her with me in my dream & it made miss her so much. 2 weeks later, during my ultrasound, it was confirmed: I was indeed having a girl. I was having a daughter & I was elated.
Elliot was born at 3:30 p.m. on a really significant day to me: Easter Sunday. The same Holiday my mother passed away on 3 years prior & the Holiest of days that we celebrate. That day I felt my mom more than ever before. My daughter came into this world with a room full of open arms on a day that was once a very hard day for me to get through.
Now Elliot is a vibrant, wonderful 14 month old mess. She is ALL girl. She loves dolls & books. She eats like a grown man. She is feisty & perfect. Having her feels like our family is complete. We just love our girl!