Sinking

Today’s post is a not so happy one. This week has been a really tough one for my little guy and I. He is teething, resisting sleep and his food intake is regressing. All while I am trying to manage a business that is taking up more and more time. I’m trying to balance, but I feel like I’m sinking.

He won’t eat. He pushes food away, and only wants crunchy things like chips and apples. He won’t even eat grapes, which was a huge win for us two weeks back.

I don’t want to eat. I feel as though I am force feeding myself. He needs to eat, so I must show him that mama can too. I feel like my eating disorder is resurfacing despite not engaging in it.

Sink sink sinking. That’s all I feel right now.

There is so much going right, but at the end of the day my priority is my son, and he is not eating. He is not sleeping. His mama is weary and weak, and something just has to let up.

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5 Responses to “Sinking”

  1. Amber
    December 12, 2013 at 9:19 am #

    You are not alone with having problems with your little one eating. For months, I’ve struggled getting food into my Bella while seeing huge plates of nutritious food that other toddlers are eating. I’d say 1 in 5 toddlers is a good eater, but my daughter isn’t one of them. Try finding a gummy that he will take to make you feel better better about nutrition.
    Also, I’m very proud of you for forcing yourself to eat. I’ve followed your struggle for a few years and I’m glad your aware of how your feeling and what’s going on. Best wishes Hun

  2. Amber
    December 12, 2013 at 9:20 am #

    That’s gummy vitamin :)

  3. Janell H
    December 13, 2013 at 1:36 pm #

    Hugs! You are not alone. They all go through these phases and we all panic. My 3 year old prefers bland crunchy foods right now. I asked for a dehydrator for Christmas, so I can make him fruit and veggie crisps. I also put puréed foods in his food. Since he has a baby brother he has been more interested in the babies food. Good luck!

  4. Kristi
    December 13, 2013 at 2:17 pm #

    Aw Xza… as a mother of four I totally understand where you’re coming from. It sucks when you’re in the midst of the no-sleeping, lots of worrying, trying to manage life but just wanting to run away moments. Praying for you, girl!! Hang in there… it never feels like it in the midst, but at some point it will improve and you can triumphantly shout “WOW… this is what it feels like to not be totally exhausted all the time!”

  5. suz
    December 13, 2013 at 3:16 pm #

    You aren’t alone. I’ve lost thirty pounds since June, scary. No eating disorder. I just don’t eat enough, no appetite, feel endlessly busy, exhausted. Feel as if I’m force feeding him anything. Trying healthy, but he rejects most. He’s even dropped weight. I see a 2 yr molar popping through, but it is taking forever. Hugs momma.

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