I feel like I could snap at any given moment lately. I don’t know exactly why but I am on edge. I have so much going on in practically every aspect of my life and I feel like I’m losing sight of my priorities. Or the bigger picture… Maybe both?
My house needs scrubbed. A wall in my room needs painted. I’m having a much needed garage sale this weekend. I need a new coffee maker (so I guess daily Starbucks run is now on my to-do list). I need a vitamix. I need GMOs to be labeled so grocery shopping doesn’t take 8 million years. I need my kids to stop fighting constantly. I need the baby to not really be feverish. I also need to figure out WTF I’m doing wrong with my diaper washing that it is giving her a rash. I need to find a local source to buy milk, eggs and a half cow from that I can trust. I need to write an outline for my first public speaking engagement. I need an extra 3 hours in the day to focus on MommyCon work. I need an extra 2 days a month to focus in TMD stuff so I’m not frantically typing up rants like this one on my phone. I need to know my marriage is on the mend after a really hard test. I need a cowhide rug. I need to see my best friend’s face. I miss him a lot. I need my stupid period to go away, Aunt Flow’s two week visit has not been welcomed. I need to find a way to cope with my feelings about my decision to be sterilized. I need to find time for me. I have a gift card for a massage that is almost 2 months old. I need my husband to make money consistently so I don’t stress about money. I need our insurance premiums to go down. I need to find the balance that I’m constantly searching for. I need so many questions answered yet I’m too afraid to ask. I need more wine… We are almost out. I need to log all the MC packages that have arrived. I need to buy tickets to Riley’s play. I need to put in my notice at work. I need an oil change on my car. I need to call and order a new lock-off for my carseat.
I think most of all I needed to get all this off my chest.