As a parent, we all hope for the best for our children. We hope they grow up to be successful, independent members of society. Will they be doctors or lawyers or the first female president? We all have big aspirations for them. I have big dreams for mine as well. What I want for them, above all, is for them to be happy.
As I have grown older and I have been through everything life has thrown in my direction, I see how simple and how important being happy truly is. I hope my kids never have to worry or be afraid. I hope they know the simple joys life can bring. I hope they grow closer to the Lord and feel the love that He gives.
I want them to have ambition and drive. I want them to want to be educated and know how important that is. Gay, straight, single, married, kids, no kids…I want them to be happy. I only wish for them to be happy.
You are my firstborn, my first love. You came into this world a small, tiny, little bundle of glory. You have been through more in four years than others have their entire lives, and yet you remain strong. You have the biggest imagination. Your laughter and jokes make rooms of people crack up. You will never know how deep my love for you truly is. We have fervently prayed for you all along the way. I hope your disease never defines who you are. I hope you live the life of kings. You deserve the world, Jax. I wish nothing but pure joy for your life.
My girl. My little lady. My crazy one. I hope you love being a girl. You are wild, happy, and love everyone. I hope that never changes. You are the daughter I have always wanted. I hope one day you become a mother and realize how deep a mother’s love for her children can be. You have taught me so much and I love you for that. I look at you and am smitten every time. You keep me on my toes, and I wouldn’t have it any other way. I wish you a lifetime of amazing. In only a year, that has been what you have given me.
I don’t hope for things like popularity or riches for Jax and Elliot. They don’t have to be the coolest kids in school. I don’t care about those things. What I care about is their hearts. I want their hearts to be full. I want them to feel secure and loved and special. What I wish is for them to be happy.